| OH NOOO. >_<. IM SUCH A WRECK. |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|09:26 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  don't want to talk about it :/ | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | IDIOT PILOT | ] |
oh. fuck.
I'm tired && altogether annoyed by people in general.
I've settled things with my friend.
but I still don't feel good, myself.
or ABOUT myself.
uh. yeah. haha.
my dad is currently talking about a knife fight he was in once.
HAHA. what a G-A-N-G-S-T-A!!
&& I'm doing my LMS shit.
I think I'm just going to try to stay away from boys for awhile :/
yes.
&& NO. I'M NOT "GOING LESBIAN".
GEE WHIZ.
but yeah.
sunday night I spent the night at Stephy's house because my dad wanted to take my sister to the ER.
so yeah.
NATURALLY,
I had a fantastic time.
I love stephanie && Melissa.
they are AMAZINGGG. x 89538935895498
&& YEAH.
I'll show you guys some new photos soon.
from then && just being a camera whore & stuff.
oh.&& my neighbors and my sister & dad.
just because they are SWEEEET.
EXCITED/JEALOUS MUCH?!
I THINK SO.
Well, do you think they'd mind?!
[I guess we'd have to find out]
I don't think we've got that kind of time.
[BURN IT TO THE GROUND.]
♥IDIOT PILOT |
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[Mar. 4th, 2006|06:42 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | THE JEALOUS SOUND. | ] |
oh. yeah.
Let me start from the top of shitty happening.
SO BASICALLY.
I love Morgan && Jess VERY VERY MUCH.
they are the people that keep me from killing OTHER people.
but yes.
the boy I thought was great;;
turns out,
he's not so great.
can you say: "USES A LINE"?!
I bet he uses the same lines on every girl he meets.
silly me.
thought I was different from other girls he's had.
oh.
fuck "different".
there is no "different" in a world of everything ALL THE SAME.
he doesn't understand what he's doing.
what he's doing to every girl who falls for a boy with the looks, the words, the smile.
nevermind.
he DOES know what he's doing.
he just doesn't give a fuck who he hurts.
considerate little boy, eh?!
oh well.
we knew he was bad news.
I just hoped he changed.
hah. whoa. yeah.
he'll never change.
&& if he does,
then may pigs fly
and oven mits dance in rain.
SLIM CHANCE.
&& I wish he'd read this.
because I won't put up with his fake composure
the way that others would.
sorry, babe.
I'm neither destroyed, nor naive.
but slightly relieved.
to say the least.
I wish you didn't feed me your bullshit.
I know it means nothing.
but you should know not to be so quick as to decieve those who could hold you up, or break your nature.
so good luck.
because I won't give you anything you can't get on a street corner in YBOR.
no.
I won't give you ANYTHING AT ALL.
I'm not another useless heart just BEGGING to be broken.
we had a thing.
it's over.
&& I hope you never treat any girl like you treated me.
"yeah. i have to tell you. something about you makes me nervous.
like butterflies in my stumach."
BULL SHIT.
NOT ANYMORE
do I want to feel your eyes scanning the back of my head.
do I wish you'd hold my hand && whisper in my ear.
do I want you to call and leave me stupid messages that make me laugh for hours.
do I want you to call AT ALL.
oh.
P.S. I know I deserve someone better than you.
so, you don't need to tell me anymore.
KTHX, FUCKER.
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[Feb. 25th, 2006|07:41 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  CONFUSED. | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | LA GUNS | ] |
So.
lately I've been thinking a lot about this boy.
lets call him "boy #1"
KAY?!
Problem is:
WRONG BOY.
YEAH.
&& I know he's wrong.
because we were together.
and we didn't work.
you name it.
he did it wrong.
he lied
he showed signs of wanting to cheat.
[but as far as I know, he didnt.]
he liked about 5 girls WHILE dating me.
ETCETERA. ETCETERA. ETCETERA.
but on the other hand.
he was sweet.
he cared.
he always wanted to be there for me.
he is ALWAYS a good friend.
&&
he knows how to make me laugh.
so. I DON'T EVEN KNOW.
I don't want to screw up things with this other boy.
because he is FANTASTIC.
but when ever boy #1 is around,
I start having second thoughts.
thinking "HEY. MAYBE THIS COULD WORK OUT."
I don't want those thoughts anymore :/
I WANT THE SECOND BOY.
he makes me happy.
he makes me laugh.
he always smells good.
he always says the sweetest things.
he has those eyes you want to drown in.
he's gorgeous.
he's caring.
&& HE DOESN'T LIE.
I JUST DON'T KNOW.
&& through this crazy ride,
You've been there deep inside.
Deep inside.
I know I'm not alone.
&& now it's all so clear,
my doubts just disappear.
When I'm with you,
I call it home.
♥ L.A. GUNS |
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| BLACKOUT. |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|08:10 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | LOVEDRUG | ] |
LIGHTS OUT.
POOR THING THAT I AM,
ALL ALONE.
HE'S STANDING COLD IN THE RAIN.
, THEY CALL ME.
I AM RAGING LIGHTNING.
--------------------------♥-----------------------------
I SEE THE RUSTY SWINGSET BLOW.
FROM GENERATIONS LONG AGO.
♥LOVEDRUG |
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| SINKING SHIPS.<3 |
[Feb. 17th, 2006|07:50 pm] |
OKAY.
OKAY.
WHAT YOU'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR.
DINOSAUR COOKIE;; MADE BY KASEYLOVE.
THIS IS DEFFINATELY MY BEST FRIEND, TAYLOR && I. OHHH. BOAS.
MAGIC.
HULA HOOPS OF FUCKING DESTRUCTION.
JEALOUS MUCH?!
MY SISTER'S ON CRISTAL METH :]
MY DAD SAYS: "PEACE, MOTHA FUCKKAAA!!"
STRANGE LIGHT SEX. WAIT. CAN THAT HAPPEN?!
TAYLOR'S CROTCH. DON'T ASK.
HAH. MORE TO COME.
MY NEIGHBORS JUST CAME OVER.
HOES.
DISTRACTING ME FROM MY WORK.
haha "if he can grab my ass while riding a bike, i give him props. i mean COME ON."
LOLZ.
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| DOWN GOES THE CAPTAIN. |
[Feb. 16th, 2006|09:53 pm] |
OKAY.
LUCKY YOU, KIDS.
PICTURES COMING SOOON.
OF FRIENDS/FAMILY/FUN.
BRACE YOURSELF.
♥ |
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| TIME. |
[Feb. 10th, 2006|10:31 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| | indescribable | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | COPELAND. | ] |
NONSENSE.
NONSENSE.
NONSENSE.
it's just like those
of me && you.
TOGETHER FOREVER. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2006|10:10 pm] |
oh. gah.
the times,
they are a changin'.
&& I just can't keep up.
[it seems we've got another EMERGENCY on our hands.]
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| YOU NEVER KNEW. [but now the radio's dead] |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|01:06 am] |
EXCUSE ME.
EXCUSE ME.
The announcer will scream.
I hate to let you know.
It's the end of the world.
"no need to pack your bags.
we're all headed for the same place."
he says.
SAY YOUR APOLOGIES.
YOU'LL NEVER SEE FRIENDS AGAIN.
suicidals applaud
&&
mothers scream.
don't worry.
childhood ended long ago.
you'll never know what you left behind.
what exactly you lost.
friends && a lazy lifestyle
[MAYBE]
swings && romances that hurt no one.
[MAYBE]
"GROW UP" they'll say.
but all she wanted to do was stay young.
childish souls reach to grasp adulthood.
but subconciously plead to be the same forever.
"I'M AFRAID OF CHANGE"
she screams.
no one will know
how she prayed at night.
hoping Peter Pan would save her.
[RIDICULOUS GIRL.]
She never asked for friends
who leave you for boys.
[INSTEAD OF ICE CREAM]
She never asked for friends
who lie, steal, cheat, and scream.
[INSTEAD OF PLAY DATES, HIDE-AND-SEEK, && COPS AND ROBBERS]
She never asked for friends
who would grow out of her.
[[completelyapathetic.]]
[INSTEAD OF CLOTHES, SHOES, && BITING NAILS]
INFACT.
SHE NEVER ASKED FOR FRIENDS AT ALL.
she only asked for love.
FOR UNCHANGING, UNDYING LOVE.
FOR SECRETS.
FOR SWINGSETS, PLAYDATES, && ROMANCES THAT HURT NO ONE.
but it's all okay now.
because the world is over.
the radio goes dead.
the lights turn off.
faint screams.
&& no more memories of what we never knew we lost.
the sad thing is...
[SHE ALWAYS KNEW.]
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| please. take into consideration. |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|06:33 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | the usual | ] |
you know what makes you oh so cool?
getting shit faced, lighting up, and taking drugs.
Because, when i think about a person I admire or want to get to know or
think that someones cool.
Thats EXACTLY what i look for. some kid who thinks their oh so fucking rad because they shoot up in the morning,
coming to school with red eyes and the munchies :)
just too cool.
And the un-protected sex you had the day you got high?
wow. i wish i was just like you.
But then I just think to myself,
whats the difference between me and you?
minus the whole "your an addict" part of the equation
oh, lets see. I have self-control and a plan.
Or at least a plan to plan.
You think your life is almost over.
If your 14/15 and you think youve lived enough.
I think maybe you need to obtain the whole concept of how long life is.
or at least how long it is if you live it to its extent.
Next time your lacing up your sneakers, thinking of the upcoming day at school.
why dont you try thinking of someone other than yourself.
ponder the thought that people care about you,
retain the thought that your friends hurt when you hurt yourself.
remember that you arent only cripling yourself and your personal outcome.
but the outcomes of everyone adjacent to you in the slightest.
dont you fucking DARE bring them into your life of drug and alcohol abuse and your habit of giving STDs a special hang out spot.
dont fucking waste your time dragging the people you love down with you.
If you want to waste your life, do it alone.
Dont stab the people who care about your survival.
you have the affect on people, you know?
Whenever you taste tobacco or alcohol,
you post a sign on your chest that reads "i dont give a fuck about anyone but myself"
if you feel like hurting yourself.
dont make friends.
youll save alot of people from flirting with the fine line between life and death.
once you think about it and commit to the way of life,
the people who you actually care about will either begin to drift away leaving you alone and depressed
or
they will unite and bond with your ways of slow suicide
could you stand, bearing the title of murderer and self-centered little fuck?
i think not.
2 less people in the world.
all due to one mistake you made.
how might that feel? knowing you and your best friend could be sitting on your couch watching cartoons, eating cereal, and laughing at the stupidest things.
dont end up reviewing your life through televised eyes.
seeing the problems you caused,
the things that could have been avoided.
so lace up your sneakers like nothings wrong.
slip on that jacket, because your so hard core.
reason with yourself.
find the will power to not do the things your just itching to do.
think of the people who love you
and think of cartoons, cereal, best friends, and regrets.
your better than that.
you deserve all that you can grasp through sober fingers.
it feels so good to not wear the tag of "murderer" across your newest pair of chuck taylors and your hoodie protecting your healed scars.
think of the people that you effect first.
think of your life and the children that will never be yours without your sobriety.
I hope you all get the picture because lord knows i love you all
♥ |
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| Lost myself in an endless goodnight |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|05:32 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | scary kids scaring kids. | ] |
i feel like shit.
kthx
I have a weird new fetish for Scary Kids Scaring Kids... so heres some lyrics. for fun. and also. im sorry i havent been updating in a while. im soooorryyy i still love you guys. I PROMISEEE!!!okay soooo yeah. heres songs that rock. WOOHOOO! ^_^
"What's Said Is Done"
We watch these days go by
The seasons changed and faded away,
and the the things I've learned to love grow old and die
(no reason why , no reason why,no reason why,no reason why)
cause life's too short to spend alone in misery
Everybody seems to look the same
I feel so alone and now my head is bowed in shame again,
so I look to the heart of the devil for answers
This path is like a loaded gun
but what's said is done
you don't have to say a word
"Just A Taste"
Forgive and forget
It's just a memory
It wont get me very far this time
Is what I've done to you unforgivable?
Silence fills the room and I get the message.
Emptiness is all that's left this time.
Is what I meant to you that forgettable?
"My Knife, Your Throat"
And the picture frames are facing down
of you
And you'll insist that you were right
When the facts show you were wrong
I'm holding my ground
You think this is some sort of game
And you need to get your story straight right now, this time
There's got to be a better way
enjoy. i love you. ♥ |
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| hate and love. where would we be with out um? =/ |
[Jul. 3rd, 2005|02:34 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | Hot Hot Heat- "goodnight goodnight" | ] |
Lonley....
I hate how jealous I feel lately.
and I hate the feeling of lonleyness.
and I hate that my parents are anal overprotective fun-killers.
and I hate that I cant go to camp with michelle and taylor.
and I hate when people say "OMG LOOK HOW BIG YOUVE GOTTEN" as if its the greatest compliment ever.
and I hate too much mayonaise.
and I hate friends who are upset.
and I hate change of any kind.
and I hate loosing friends.
and I hate movies [b/c the good guy always wins. face the facts. they dont.]
and I hate when people are sick.
and I hate the news.
and I hate how see-through my feelings are sometimes.
and I hate when my parents wont leave me alone.
and I hate when I am really upset, and cant tell anyone the way I feel or my dillema.
and I hate that I will be the only person in my whole group of friends at school who didnt go off to camp or on vacation.
and I hate being confused.
and I hate that empty feeling I feel in the pit of my stumach when hes not around.
and I hate finding out bad things about the people I love.
and I hate people who hate me before they know me.
and I hate rumors.
and I hate people who think they are better than everyone else.
and I hate Bush [ im sorry if u disagree but I have my reasons]
and I hate when people sterio-type.
and I hate not being able to say what you mean [or what you feel]
I love my friends.
and I love lj and myspace.
and I love living.
and I love being in love.
and I love Josh ^_^.
and I love hallarious conversations.
and I love staring at a friend upside down and laughing at how stupid we are/hallarious it is [shelby].
and I love music.
and I love poetry.
and I love being with the people you love.
and I love that shivery feeling you get when the person you love is around you.
and I love flirty "im gonna kick ur ass" games.
and I love potatoes.
and I love hide-and-go-seek.
and I love polka dots.
and I love the occasional drink. [haha]
and I love cartoons.
and I love making new friends.
and I love hula hoops :)
and I love holding hands.
and I love kissing scenes. [it might be a bad fetish haha]
and I love the Hula Hoops Of Destruction.
and I love the Secret Society.
and I love hot skateboarders.
and I love saying things like using sex as a verb "i dont want to sex you"
or "can I molest your kitties".
and I love making people laugh even though im not funny.
and I love eating.
and I love running for no reason.
and I love good dreams ^_^
and I love staring up at the clouds and making out shapes in them.
and I love the stars.
and I love rocket ships and space.
and I love when people trust me.
and I love when people vent to me.
and I love trying to help people.
and I love musicals.
and I love when I have something to strive for.
[my moms making me eat...] ill edit and add more later.
and I love shelby for listening to my thoughts and reading my mind and laughing at me when I almost set my hand on fire, and being a great friend and an amzing person and always making me smile and laugh and occasionally pee my pants :)
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| tell me Im wrong when I say.... |
[Jun. 27th, 2005|12:55 am] |
| [ | MOOD |
| | thoughtful | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | Matchbook Romance "My Eyes Burn" | ] |
gahhh
hey... I just wanted to say HOW MUCH I LOVE MY LJ BUDDYS =D oo yeah... ALOTALOTALOTALOTALOTALOT x9325298525498274590273529
sooo yeah. and all of my friends I LOVE YOU ALLLL
thank you for putting up with my crap and whining and venting[taylor and SYD and michelle and shelby] but mostly my crap....
and the occasional obsession haha
love to all who are worthy.... my friends
[I live for that single moment I take back everything I've said You wore those words on your lips As if they meant anything anyway.] |
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| Pathetic... thats what I am. |
[Jun. 18th, 2005|07:08 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  umm...can you say I-MISS-YOU | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | The Matches - "audio blood" | ] |
okay... I vented before to Taylor[my lover bunny hehe] but I figure... why not vent to all of my lj buddies?
You know what sucks? and whats completely pathetic? I envy movies ... [god this is pathetic]... but still... I envy the people in movies. the endings always turning out SO perfect. They are programmed so perfectly that every movie is predictable in its own way. The guy gets the girl. they go out. they kiss in beautiful scenery. they get married. Have children. In a sense, live happily ever after. Is it bad to want to live the movie? to want to feel what its like, where the good guy always wins and the bad guy always loses. Isnt that the way its supposed to be? Or so we are brought up to think. We were once kids in a harmless world[or so we thought] with ideas that went something like "when Im older im going to be a princess and I will marry my dad and live happy ever after in the tallest most beautiful castle there is" , no kid dreamed of saving peoples lives or picking up garbage or living in poverty. But its life and we have to deal with it. and im just thinking, I mean do parents mean it as a sick joke, lying to us like that, or as a useless try at sheltering us. I don't get the point. Why trick your children into a world of hate, jealousy, broken hearts, and still frame pictures of only good times, when the bad times in between are the ones that split people up and break your heart. Where are the pictures of your boyfriend cheating on you? and the fights you have with your parents? We need to remember the bad times too, so that we dont make the same mistakes over and over again. that is a major problem with people. I have that problem too. I block out the bad times to make msyelf feel better and only focus on the good times. But the good times are becoming so few and far between that its hard to not remember the bad. its just so depressing. I wish people just told it how it is. The world would be sooo much easier and more truthful. If when you were little you were told that the world isnt perfect, people are animals, friends will turn on you, you will at times want to die, people die everyday, a broken heart is the worstpain imaginable[even worse than a boo-boo], that people will destroy you to be more successful,and that life can be joyous if you want it to be. im not saying that life is all shit and crap. Im just saying NO ONE REALIZES THE BAD POINTS. and we are taught and we believe lies when we are younger. I just wonder why we all cant be told straight-up. I wish for everyone to tell me everything to my face If im a bitch tell me. if you THINK I have bad opinions, by all means TELL ME. my favorite people are the people who love me enough and who care enough to say hey. you need to breath and just love life a little and give me constructive critisicsm to make myself a better person. you may hurt my feelings, but if its for the better good, i will love you.
Also, if he were here and if he were reading this, than I would want him to know that im missing him to death. Even if he's on vacation. Hes still here in my thoughts and dreams. The problem is that he just wont leave me alone. I try to think and I see his face. I try to see the importance in something, and my mind is playing out skits of what will happen when he comes home. I try to sleep and I get a day of insomnia and restless work. I miss him and I hope where ever he is, he is happy and having fun. And hopefully not missing me as much as I am missing him. ♥
I miss those butterflies.
and those unexplainable smiles
and those beats that my heart skipped.
I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
both by youmakeme_shake
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| -_-_-If it should stop, we'll take it from the top... again-_-_- |
[Jun. 15th, 2005|01:38 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  hyped up to excersize | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | "Keep On"- Light Weight Holiday | ] |
Heylo guys! AHHH IVE UPDATED LIKE 7 TIMES... and my computers just like "ehhh... i dont want to show that entry" soooo here I am.... trying again! haha okay sooo... yeah. AHHH I hate when people leave me, everyone needs to stay put and not go ANYWHERE!! because everyone keeps going on vaca [shelby, ayrn, taylor(did), syd, Josh, Kristina(is going to Norway soon),Jacob's at camps... fag, etc. etc. etc.] and then people are moving too [Kara... I will miss her sooo much!!! *_*.(crying face) ] why cant people STAY WHERE THEY ARE!!!! I hate change. I hate people leaving. I hate loosing friends. and I HATE when your best friendships are split up when they find new friends or you find new friends. Change is gay. and I need to excersize, m parents are worried that i might get the disease dana has and at first it makes you like anorexically skinny, so like yesterday they were like "Kelly your putting on some punds, I think you need to excersize..." and then they heard what they said and they started like "omg... your putting on WEIGHT YAY! " and shit it was sad that they would be happy b/c of that lmao, but I guess it was for a good cause.... haha soo I have to start working out and *mumbles* eating right.... AHHH. haha I need to get back into doing Palaties and stuff! and hopefully I can get some friends to do it with me... b/c its WAY more fun with friends, and you dont feel the strain as much,and then when you're done its like WOAAHHHH and you can feel how much better all your muscles are. Its completely awesome. TELL ME IF YOU WANT TO =D b/c that would be awesomely cool haha. RARRR haha taylor.... thats was creepy... Anyways. Thank you Shelby for teaching me how to do this... I miss you SOOOOOO MUCH!
( Your secrets lie inside... )
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| Do it for me... |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|07:30 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  I miss him.... | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | Fall out boy | ] |
Just putting down the thoughts that fill my head... If you dont agree... tell me, but I probablly wont think differently just because you think so... Ill keep an open mind... but im not promising ANYTHING... so yeah I'll just start. I don't understand people anymore, some say Im a people person, but how can you BE a people person... It makes no sence when you REALLY think about it... Oh let me see... people like me and im easy to talk to, so that makes you a people person.... SHIT PEOPLE TRY ALL THE TIME TO BE LIKED... THATS THE PROBLEM WITH THIS WORLD... people try too hard instead of just being themself and it's really been pissing me off... not everyone is going to like you.... GET OVER YOURSELF why does EVERYONE have to like you... so that you'll be popular and wonderful, is that one extra person going to make you that much more worth while. so basically to sum this part up... befriend the people who are nice, funny, lovely, good people... NOT BECAUSE they are cooler than the most worth while of friends. ALso... this is not to anyone in particular... or even to anyone at all. I just need people to get the message. Also another thing, yesterday it hit me... and it is quite depressing... I dont know why... but it is, I just wonder some times, what happened to the good 'ol "I love you"s... it seems like we are finding more and more ways to shorten things to type and shit... and we are using abbreviations that don't need to be used... and instead of using the lovely "I love you" we've resulted to: (to name a few)
*I love u
*I luv u
*I luh u
*I <3 u
*(and finally) just <3
...I know I've been guily of the first one a few times... but can we not take the three seconds out of our day to write a ten character sentence... really how hard is it... I mean if you really love them... not just saying it out of kindness... but saying it to a close friend... or someone you really DO love... then why not at least spell the words out... I don't know why this has been killing me... and I know I am a pathetic, sappy, person and who ever reads this will probablly forget it 3 seconds after you X-it-out, but the last point is that, if you care... make it seem like it... "actions speak louder than words" ... you lovely people just think about this next time... because one means more than the other... well to me at least... and finally... I got my braces tightened and my teeth hurt like a bitch so Im going to go... THINK ABOUT ITTT lmao I love you guys very very veryyyyy much...
I LOVE YOU ALLLLL!
Do it for love
Can we fake this love,
just for me,
as long as your a good actor and I'm the clueless assistant,
we can do this right?
we can make it work,
if only you knew me for me...
we could fake it.
If only you did love me,
then we wouldn't have to fake this love.
The love I feel for you is true..
but can you fake it?
make me feel as though you do.
If only you were a good faker.
But what about those nights you faked the words that stole my heart,
said I was beautiful,
a lovely gift from heaven's mouth,
then you sipped on my heart as if it were cider,
and ate from my palms like a delecacy had once been ladeled there,
the day I wore my heart on my sleeve,
you asked me if it was a decoration,
and I told you that it was the only thing that kept me alive,
as you slowly stole it with a suave kiss,
I knew you had it planned
it was a diversion, so you could peel it from my shirt,
... I knew it... but for sme reason I let it happen.
I wanted to feel your lips against mine,
even if it meant that I would never love again,
or love anyone other than you.
its my fault that we have to fake this love,
will you do it?
will you do it for me, for the girl who lets you steal her heart from her sleeve
and the girl who let you fake your words to ease her soul...
do it for her....
do it for me. |
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| Cry to me, sing to me... your voice composes the song in my head |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|05:53 pm] |
| [ | MOOD |
| |  mmm...we'll leave it there... | ] |
| [ | TUNES |
| | Deathcab for Cutie and rain =/ | ] |
HEY GUYS... well yesterday was awesome fun, Taylor came over all day and we had an awesome time!!! First we picked her up... and then we went to Wal*mart and played with all the toys and hula hoops =D YAY! that was fun lmao we were both in this hula hooop whirling around and taylor was doing like the narration: "we are a hurricane and will destroy anything in our path BANG! WOOOSH!..." haha it was great... then we found a shopping cart and Taylor got in it and I pushed her down the isles... but she was scared she was going to fall out.. so of course I went faster =D lmao and then we had to leave =( but my mom had other errands to run soo we had a nice talk lmao!!! and stuff.. and then when we came back... and had lots of fun for a while and ate cereal =D YUMM cinamon toast crunch haha and than after we finished eating... we went to go eat more =D so we walked to Coldstone lmao where themost hallarious thing EVER happened... HAHAHA I cant help talking about it without smiling!!! okay so there we were the two of us minding our own buisness eating our ice cream... and there were these three girls... and Taylor knew them a LONG time ago at BSTC... so yeah... and their voices were SOOO FREAKING ANNOYING... ARGHHH! and high pitched... like a cat with a tumor or something =( but yeah... and then they went to walk past us and I went *clears throut* whore... and then another one passed and I went *clears throut* skank and then taylor goes... SKANK!! lmao and the girls walked outside and we kept eating our ice cream CRACKING UP LAUGHING! and then they started doing hand motions and so taylor looked over.. I DIDNT SEE THIS... and one of the girls flicked her off lmao and KNOWING TAYLOR... she wasnt going to let it slide... so she runs out there yellin at um.. and me just clueless haha and she was like "THATS RIGHT U EFFIN SKANKS!" and all this stuff.. I was laughing so hard I think I pissed myself lmao and then she was like walking after these girls and they were soooo friggen scared.. and they started running and this one girl that taylor knew was behind the wall hiding and taylor goes up to her and is like "WHY THE HELLD U FLICK ME OFF" and she goes *high-pitched squeaky voice* "WHY WERE U MEAN TO ME WHEN I WAS LIKE 8?" LMFAO! her voice made BOTH of us crack up haha we were still laughing about it like an hour later... HAHA okay then we came home and was stupid for a while and she helped me with my myspace and stuff.. and then she left at like 6:30! =( BLAH I LOVE HER VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH! she can always make me smile... and then today was boring.. and I watched White Chicks and talked to some ppl and did boring crap... URGGHH it was total crap.. the end.. but yeah! sooo I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!! and... YOU HAVE A LOVELY FACE!
♥ Kelly!
♥ Cry to me, sing to me. your voice composes the song in my head. I feel the rhythm in my heart. See it in my Veins. ♥ |
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